human nature

it’s just human nature.. that’s all.. we try to make things right for another but end up being at the same stand point. and by the time we get caught red handed with our naked bodies seen by the eyes of judgment, we act exactly the same as what we were against on in the first place. to be judged and be a judge, the irony and the hypocrisy of it all.. it is only human nature after all.. it was, or for me at least, never meant to be just.. because we are only humans ..

Mr. Love Virus

Sometimes I wonder if I hadn’t told you how I felt, maybe you’d still be the same and I’d still have this stupid crazy feeling for you.

To tell you was like the end of the world. And the end of the world was like the freedom I wanted most.

So here’s how I’ve come in terms with Mr. LOVE Virus~you silly man:)

1. Love could really make you hope.

As if we were meant to be…

But to impose myself on you, I had to step back and take a breather.

2. Acceptance comes with inner peace:)

It was hard, really. You had my heart and I needed guts to ask if maybe, just maybe, I could have yours even in an inkling. But, I didn’t expect to enter a whirlwind after I told you. I know it’s not your fault. Neither of us were. It was only human nature that  I had to blame someone and I ended up blaming myself for not putting up to your expectations. I hated myself for that. That I could never be that dream girl of yours or be that perfect girl for you. I thought I could never find someone like you. BUT!!!

Its OK. Yeah! Everything’s going to be OK. To have met you means that I am only human, capable of loving someone. And that someday, someone out there will be glad to accept me for who I really am:)

3. No Regrets!

If I didn’t meet you. If I didn’t say a word. I wouldn’t be the same.

So thank you Mr. Love Virus for being a part of my wacky, perfectly imperfect life.

That’s what it means to live

“I understand. You’re still alive too, right? If you’re hungry, then eat. If you’re hurt, then struggle. If you’re suffering, then scream. That’s what it means to live.”

– Kenren Taisho, Saiyuki Gaiden OVA 2